The Babe With The Power

So apparently this is what happens when I clean up the stash. ;)

megan and kevin baby announcement

I can’t even begin to tell you how thrilled we are to announce that I have perfected human cloning, and soon my own little llama will be joining us. Plus, as an added bonus, Stormageddon Lord of All* was thoughtful enough to plan his/her entrance in the winter so I can go crazy making baby sweaters in advance. I’ve already got the baby blanket well underway, in Tardis Blue of course. I’m rocking out with Baah Yarn La Jolla in London Blue and the pattern is Feather & Fan by Eugen Beugler.

https://instagram.com/p/45XVBnCZnk/?taken-by=doctor_llama

This has been a pretty crazy ride for Kevin and me. We were married in 2012 and wanted children right away, but we married knowing that having kids “the old fashioned way” may not be on the table because of my severe Endometriosis. We had discussed options before we were even engaged, primarily adoption. But we really haven’t shared this publicly before. It occurs to me that even members of my own family are finding out about it here for the first time. Ultimately, I decided to write about it today, along with the baby announcement, because like many others struggling with infertility, I experienced the bittersweet feelings of other’s baby announcements. I was thrilled for friends and family that announced pregnancies, but at the same time it’s impossible not to feel a little pang of “why not me?”

Most of my friends and family didn’t know that Kevin and I had been trying to conceive for years, and before I found out I was pregnant, we had begun seriously exploring adoption. I took this year off of school so that we could get our house and finances in order to begin that process. If people asked about babies, I would tell them we weren’t trying or that the timing was bad or that I was focusing on school/Lattes & Llamas/etc… But the truth is, it was just too hard for me to talk about. I knew what my options were and the idea of rehashing it with each new person that found out, hurt more than I can convey with words.

The CDC estimates that 1 in 8 couples experience trouble conceiving, and that’s why I wanted to get real for a few paragraphs. I don’t usually like to get quite this personal with things here, but I also wanted to acknowledge any of you that have had to deal with infertility, I get what you’re going through, and for what it’s worth I’m sending you an internet hug right now. You are not alone.

As per usual, I’m going to deflect my feelings now with yarn. Here’s a tiny elephant I’m making for my tiny overlord!

https://instagram.com/p/4wgdioCZr7/?taken-by=doctor_llama

In the end, we didn’t do anything special to conceive. This pregnancy caught us both completely by surprise. The first few months were pretty rough, but the 2nd trimester is living up to its reputation of being much easier. The baby and I are both progressing well. Of course, that is if you don’t count the fact that I’m fighting the urge to buy EVERY SKEIN OF YARN and baby pattern book ever written, but we’ll see how long that kind of willpower lasts. Lazerwolf loves cashmere almost as much as s/he loves thin crust mushroom pizza.

~Megan-Anne

*Kevin and I have actually decided to refer to the baby as Lazerwolf until we make the final name decision, which might also be Lazerwolf. Sorry not sorry, Mom.

26 thoughts on “The Babe With The Power

  1. Leslie F says:

    Congratulations on Lazerwulf! I am very happy for you.

    I have polycystic ovaries, so my one son was a bit of a miracle conception as well. Like you, I had a rough couple of months…but I thought it was sinuses…not babies.

    We women should talk about this issue because many of us suffer silently when we actually have people we are close to that have the same issues (I also discovered this about Alzheimer’s while my Mom had it). And it is a major issue in life.

  2. Sarah Doty says:

    Congratulations! My grandson is named Richard Grayson. As the grandmother that’s much easier to take than Lazerwolf ! The nurse at the allergist is naming hers Logan and the dad has a Wolverine outfit for the trip home!! Gotta love it!

    • Megan-Anne says:

      Thanks! And those are great names :) I LOVE the name Logan but while Kev would be all for naming a baby after wolverine, he knows I’d be naming him after Logan from Veronica Mars, and he hates that character (a thing I TRY to overlook though it has been a point of contention more than once ;)

    • Jacquline Cappuccino says:

      Megan-Anne had “the flu” on and off for nearly two months before I convinced her to take a test! It turns out that whole “having a light period while pregnant” thing isn’t a myth after all. ;)

      Also, congrats on your own little miracle!

  3. Dizzy says:

    Congrats! I just had a little one of my own in May, and so far my time off has been spent mostly with my needles in hand…so I understand the feeling! (My husband also refers to her as Stormaggedon…it seems there’s an epidemic of overlords lately). All the best to you and the little one!

  4. spyderkl says:

    Congratulations! I have polycystic ovaries; tried lots of different things, but we finally adopted 13 years ago (eep!). It’s been an adventure for sure. All the best for all three of you – enjoy it!

  5. rondaletts says:

    Omigosh congrats to you both! I also had endo, and took two years to conceive kiddo one, two years for kiddo 2 once I could convince the hubby that another was a good idea, and ‘only’ one year to conceive kiddo 3. So they are several years apart, but that’s how we were blessed. Never two in diapers at the same time! :) Such an emotional ride, but soooo worth it. Love and light to the three of you!!! P.S. Get your knitting done now before all your time is sucked up by dearest Lazrwolf! :)

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